Sometimes, life feels like a series of unanswered questions and heavy silences. We look up at the vast, swirling sky and wonder why certain storms hit our gardens while others pass us by, or why some losses feel so much deeper than others. Etty Hillesum’s beautiful words remind us that there is a profound release found in letting go of our need to demand explanations from the universe. To forgive the divine for being divine is to accept that there is a much larger, much more complex tapestry being woven than the small corner of it we can see. It is about making peace with the mystery.
In our everyday lives, this often shows up as a struggle with fairness. We might find ourselves sitting in the quiet of our kitchens, feeling a sense of resentment because things didn't go according to our carefully laid plans. We hold onto these tiny sparks of bitterness, thinking that if we just hold onto our frustration long enough, we might somehow regain control. But that resentment doesn't change the circumstances; it only clouds our ability to see the beauty that is still present in the world around us.
I remember a time when I felt quite lost myself, much like a little duckling separated from the flock in a thick fog. I was so focused on why my path had become so difficult and why the sun wasn't shining on my specific journey that I missed the gentle warmth of the midday sun that was still there for everyone else. I was busy being angry at the universe for the fog, rather than learning how to navigate through it with kindness. It was only when I stopped asking 'why me' and started asking 'how can I be kind to myself in this fog' that the light began to break through again.
Compassion is the bridge that leads us out of that resentment. It starts with a soft heart toward our own struggles and extends outward to the world. When we stop demanding that life conform to our expectations, we open up space to witness the small miracles that are always happening. We begin to see that even in the midst of hardship, there is a rhythm to existence that is worth embracing.
Today, I invite you to take a deep breath and release just one tiny grievance you have been holding against the world. You don't have to solve everything at once; just try to meet your current situation with a little more gentleness and a lot more grace.
